08.08.13

So lately, memories of the past have emerged. Memories which I had blocked out for a long period of time. Its weird how our brains can block out memories which cause us pain, guilt and shame. The thing is, how do you deal when all the memories come fast and all at the same time. How do you deal with reliving the thoughts, feelings and emotions you had when you experienced that memory. All I can think about is it, everything that happened around it, how old I was, how I felt, what I tried to do. All these little things replay in my head and there is no way of escaping them. So how do you escape them unless you escape yourself. The thing is, I don't know if my past is affecting me presently I don't know as to what happened then has caused me to suffer from depression and bulimia? I just don't know anymore.