I feel so heavy with all these emotions floating about. I feel drowned in my thoughts and this confusion about what to do now. I just want help to figure this out but I can't get that and I'm scared I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life because if it is, this is no quality of life. I just want everything to be easier that what they are now or even just manageable because I don't know how to deal with anything now and no matter how many cuts I make, no matter how many pills I take or how much alcohol I drink, it never takes this pain away. No one seems to understand the torment that is occurring in my mind and people just say 'you've just got to get on with it' but I actually can't. There is just too much going on and I'm so scared and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm ruining everything I've got left which is so small. I feel myself slowly degrading into nothing and soon I'll be invisible and no one will see me anymore and I won't even recognise the person I see in the mirror. Is it really to much to ask to be okay? Song: Two Coins - City and Colour
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