I'm just staring at my assignment thinking 'whats the point?'; its due in for Monday and I need to write another 1000 words and upgrade it. I could have had an extension but didn't see the point in just having another week to do nothing and just stare at it. I've been back at home since Tuesday and am going back to Newcastle tomorrow. Than on Monday I need to hand in my assignment, sort out registering with a GP for me to be able to go back to university and than have the dreaded occupational health assessment on Wednesday to see if I'm fit enough to go back to university. I don't even know if I want to stay at uni but even my tutor said that going home and not doing anything could make me worse than where I am now.
I'm currently struggling really bad. I mean I could call the crisis team in Newcastle now but there is no point as I am currently 300 miles away from them and there would be no use. Its not the fact that I want to take an overdose or anything but its just I feel so low, like a numb low where nothing feels real and its like I feel like I need to cry but nothing wants to shift. No tears want to be shed. I'm tired of feeling like this.
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