So this last week has been hectic, emotional and draining. Crisis team practically everyday, and ambulance and getting drunk by myself. I've been signed of university and for placement (which finished on friday anyway) so I missed my last week of it. I'm allowed back to university only after an assessment/interview with occupational health to deem if I'm fit enough to be on the course.
Everyone keeps on asking me what I want or what I need but I don't know. I'm 19, how the fuck am I supposed to know what is useful. I'm allowed to go home but with strict instructions to tell someone if I'm struggling. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I'm just tired of this 'life' ya know. People are saying maybe you should take time off university and go back home but no where feels like home. I just feel so lost and I'm crying when I'm writing this because this all just hurts so much and I'm just too vulnerable to do anything. I look lost, pale, confused, drifting in and out of this world. I just can't do this anymore.
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