14.11.13

If I could write down this feeling inside, I would, but I can't. No words can describe this aching feeling. A feeling that I don't even understand. I don't know what I want nor what I need. I feel extremely lost yet I feel like its my time to go. Don't ask me why I feel that way because I don't understand it myself. All I've been thinking about is that when I go back to university, I'll slip away. Slip away from this place. Slip away into the unknown. I just feel that suicide is the only option now. It feels like I'm saying goodbye to everyone. I'm going to give all the money I have to them. They need it. They don't need a waste and a failure of daughter. They should be ashamed of me. I'm a disgusting human being. I'm a waste of space. A space that a beautiful person can replace. When one person dies, another is born and when I go, some better person will replace me in this world.